by John Laue
The Wakening
This must be another universe,
one of the alternate ones
not so tangible as that where I succumbed.
I’m a new-born ghost,
my awareness shifted to this body.
The feeling of weightlessness pervades me
as if I could float in air like smoke.
Here part of me has been living all along,
conducting a similar life with different rules
among the ghosts, the shadows that are real.
Glad my consciousness was transferred here,
that there’s someplace after death,
I leave the orphanage and go out
to search for my rebirthing shape.
Shall it be as butterfly, plant,
animal or bird? Or human again?
I only know it will be planned but accidental.
How many other worlds I’ll enter,
with what length of lives, what limitations
are now mysteries wrapped in starry nets
of universal consciousness.
But I’ve begun to cut through the confusion.
This must be how we evolve,
not backward or forward in time, but simultaneously.
Wind blows through me as I float along
barely feeling the pressure of my steps,
noticing small differences between this world
and the one I suddenly left.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
John Laue, teacher/counselor, a former editor of Transfer, San Francisco Review, and Monterey Poetry Review, has won awards for his writing beginning with the Ina Coolbrith Poetry Prize at The University of California, Berkeley. With five published poetry books, the most recent A Confluence of Voices Revisited (Futurecycle Press), and a book of prose advice for people with psychiatric diagnoses (The Columns of Joel Mobius), he presently coordinates the reading series of The Monterey Bay Poetry Consortium.