by R. J. Smith
Will You Still Look on Me Like a Failure if I Tell You This is What I Want?
Chance doesn’t care, unfortunately.
Some are forced to perfect
their straight faces so the winners may not
know who has lost. Would I rather never
roll a six, or know what it feels like to lose
it all? At times I think I’ve done quite well;
after all, I am here to write this.
What is a declined mortgage if not
life experience? What is a failed marriage
but the source of inspiration? Is not
the bailiff’s knock the finest incentive
to achieve?
What do you know of me?
Only a little. Only these moments. But
I am far more than these experiences.
I am easy conversation and casual jokes,
a welcome voice at the monthly karaoke,
guaranteed first batsman for my local club.
I am sleepover dad on alternate weekends.
I am long bubble baths, Superman
pyjamas and hot chocolate.
Hand me the dice and watch me smile.
Trust me, I am happy.
ABOUT THE AUTHOR
R. J. Smith is an English poet and short story writer. His writing explores the fragile and often contradictory relationships found internally and with those around us. He is currently studying Creative Writing at Bath Spa University, and you can find him on Instagram at robert.the.unkind and on Twitter @RobertUnkind.
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